A Premonition

Before we knew about the fertility issues we were facing, I had made a trip to Maine by myself for I can't even remember what, I made a stop at a walmart in New Hampshire. I love the walmarts in the North East, they always have a huge selection of red sox stuff. I was picking t-shirts out for G and I came across these adorable onesies. I bought 2 thinking this would be a great way to tell G he is going to be a dad when we get pregnant. I obviously didn't get an opportunity to get a surprise, we're pregnant moment.  But these little buggers would show up in the most random ways, as to say don't give up hope just yet. They had a mind of their own. They'd show up in the wash, in a dresser drawer, and today G found them in the trunk of a car we didn't even own when I bought them. I think it's pretty ironic I bought two of them. At the time I figured mine as well have one if we have a girl and one for if we have a boy. I of course didn't think well what if we have twins. If they come out a boy/girl that will be definitely ironic. I can't wait to put the babies in this (I should probably invest in another boy and another girl one just in case.) It was a nice reminder of where we've been and where we are going. It may seem weird for most that we have already bought a crib and I'm so obsessive over getting everything prepared, but when you have waited for 4 and a half years to just get pregnant you are very ready to prepare for their coming. At just 10 weeks this pregnancy already feels like I've been pregnant for a decade. I wish I could say I'm enjoying being pregnant but pregnancy is a means to end. I just want to see their faces and know they are ok. Hopefully once I am not nauseous 97% of the day and we get past some milestones, I'll settle in and enjoy this miracle.

We don't get to see the babies until February 14th. Happy Valentines day to us!! I'll be honest I'm happy for the little break from the doctors. We saw them every week until this week, so of course I worry. But the constant nausea and growing belly keeps me thinking everything is fine. Believe it or not my anxieties are getting a little better.

Since we don't have a picture of our babies I thought I'd share a really cool picture of what a 10 week old baby looks like in utero. It is really amazing how they grow so fast. This week they...."We're Swimming! The baby has begun moving inside the womb although it's too small for mom to notice. Most of the joints are formed now - elbow, wrist, knee, shoulder, and ankle as well as the hands, fingers, feet and toes."